Archive of a Breast Cancer Survivor
04.15.05
Postponed
The last application of chemo was postponed. I contracted the flu and my white
blood cell count was showing an infection. Rather than risk the chances of
hospitalization, I opted to wait out the illness for a week, cancel the chemo
and continue the following Friday with the last session. Mixed feelings, of
course. Depression sets in as I seek the final stages of chemo to be completed.
How much more can I take? And yet I somehow feel grateful that it’s only
a week away, once again. I tell myself I will get through this. I have no other
way to react but with the voice of eternal concern, for solace and comfort.
To put it simply, though I have moments that challenge the core of who I am,
deep inside I know the finish line is only days away.