Archive of a Breast Cancer Survivor
01.01.05
Welcome 2005
I wanted to start the New Year of 2005 with some profound understanding of
where I was heading in the next year of my life. I wanted to be able to wrap
my fingers around some concrete knowledge, which would aid me in a zen-like
state, where I could rise above my body and see the world and everything around
myself for what it is, or what I could pretend it was. But I am afraid I can
do nothing of the sort. All I can aim for is a pause in the breath of a day,
where the blue sky will bring me the ultimate pleasure, or the song of a bird
will possess more vibrancy than the total minutes taken to walk the surface
of the moon. As I look at this picture of myself with my newly cut hair in
preparation for chemo, I want to take this time to thank each and every single
love, friend, companion, and hand-holding person who has assisted me thus far
in this unusual journey I am facing. Thank you dearly for supporting me and
being my friend. Thank you for your phone calls and your words which have meant
everything. Thank you. May we all be blessed with the sweet song of a bluebird
sitting pretty on our shoulders leading the way to
profound love and friendship in the coming year of 2005.